"You Can't Stop the Beat"...

what a song...

that's about what life feels like right now too! LOL! We're back from our cruise and boy was it wonderful... I could have stayed on the boat a bit longer though! Joey and I went snorkeling! (Yes, I actually got in the water and snorkeled... is that a real word? LOL!) We had a great weekend...

...and now it's back to reality! Things are crazy at work and not looking to up anytime soon... Joey and Ty are so excited T-ball is fixing to start, so we'll have practices and games to start throwing into the mix! But we're excited! Ty loves to play and we have alot of our old players back this year! Hooray!

So as for my diet and exercise? Well lets just say that my exercise on the cruise for the weekend was walking the multitude of step since it took to long to wait for an elevator... and diet... well, let's just say... floating buffet! Although both of us were pretty good about watching what and how much we ate over the weekend! I really need to get back out and start running or maybe walking/running the track at the ball fields while the kids are practicing. And I'm excited that I finally got my "Zone Pilates" stuff in the mail so I get to start that and hopefully lose inches baby! Between that and the Jillian Michaels workouts it should kick me into high gear! Hopefully!

There's so much to do and so much going on... but loving life and striving to keep my joy! Only living for today! The Bible says not to lend your worries to tomorrow... no need to borrow trouble or worry. Live in the moment, this is what makes those wonderful memories of your family and friends.

Keep the joy!

P.S. I'm trying to get all my cruise pics downloaded and figure out how to get them on here! So hopefully they'll be up this week!

I'm cruisin' baby!

Woo Hoo!

I'm done with work for the week, finally home and working on packing, cleaning the house, packing the kids, cleaning out the car... you know, all of the normal vacation stuff!

My mom-in-law always picks up the kiddos from school and tumbling and t-ball on Thursday's so I got to come home w/ the hubby and get some stuff done this afternoon before they get home tonight. There's still alot to do though.

So I pray that everyone has a great weekend and stays warm! Pray for us while we're gone so the boat doesn't fall apart, sink, nobody gets seasick, we don't miss the boat, etc... all those crazy little things keep going through my mind! Ughhhh!

I'll have to figure out how to get pictures on here when I get back!

Whirlwind week in the making...

... and boy, don't I know it! How is it that even though the holiday's have past that everyone is still crazy with their schedules!!

I really had thought that things would settle down a little after Christmas, but boy was I wrong! We still have something going on almost every night and every weekend! Church, revival, special singing engagements, dance practice, karate, t-ball, and our cruise this weekend! Woo Hoo! So that means a little extra laundry, cleaning, packing, sorting, etc... the list can just keep going on and on and on and on and on and on.... LOL!

I'm thinking that before the week is over I may need to hire someone to start keeping my schedule and cleaning my house and I can't seem to get it all done anymore!!! LOL! Geez!!!

Anyway, I'm still thanking God everyday for my family, friends, work and sometimes crazy, crazy life. He is in control!!!!!!! And I am working so hard on my attitude towards things and not letting anyone or anything steal my joy, day by day! Yes, I may slip one or two times, but the fact that I realize what's happening when I do it means I'm growing! YAY!

Joey and I were really excited that this past Sunday we were able to get back into our Sunday School class. With starting the new service last February and a new band, etc... we had so much to do and put together and things to coordinate for the band that we just hadn't felt like we could step back yet... but we were beginning to feel like we were completely removed from all of our friends, so we started praying about it. Finally the Lord gave Joey a peace about the situation with the band, and Joey made the decision that he would just "let go, and let God!"!!!! It was great to be back in class! We are so blessed at our church to have people in our age group that we can talk to, hang out with, cry with, laugh with (we do alot of this one!!), and so on... we love our little group and everyone in it!

So basically I'm on "Cloud 9" this week and trying to stay that way!!!! Keeping the Joy in 2009!

My joy...

Hooray! I woke up this morning and decided to not let anything or anybody steal my joy today, and I suceeded!!! Woo Hoo!

I had a great day. Relatively quiet at work, got really caught up and alot done, practiced the hymns that I have to play on Sunday since our pianist will be gone, pampered myself and got my nails done and did a tiny bit of shopping. After that I met up w/ the hubby and in-laws, picked up the kids from t-ball and tumbling at school and we went to Outback for dinner! YUMMY! We had a great relaxing, talkative dinner!

We've just gotten home and I'm reading blogs and emails and got wonderful news that Hannah & Wes' twins are doing better! YAY! We're still going to keep praying that they continue to thrive and get to come home soon!

I just want to say that I appreciate the comments that some of you have left, and I love all my "girls/DIVAS"! We all seriously need to get together soon! So in need of a girls night!!!

Well, we're just one week away from the day that Joey and I sail away on our cruiseship for our Anniversary! Woo Hoo! We need the time away! We're both looking forward to it so much! I just know somehow though I'll end up feeling guilty for being away from the kiddos and church, even though it's just 3 nights and 4 days!

Well, it's time to get off of here and get some things done around the house! ;-) I think I might go dig out the suitcase and my dresses for our dinners! Woo Hoo! Woo Hoo! Woo Hoo!

Feelings, nothing more than feelings...

...that was a great "oldie" but a goodie!

So I've been having a lot of "feelings" lately and I need to get them off my chest. Alot has happened over the past few months and we haven't really shared alot of it.

Back in the very beginning of November we found out that I was pregnant with our 3rd baby! We were so happy... after the initial shock since we weren't trying! But Joey took it really well, got very excited about it and started making a lot of plans. He even picked out names! Now I know that sounds really silly, but you have to understand the background behind it...

We got married, we had Kenzie, found out that I was pregnant w/ Tyler when Kenzie was 9 mnths old and needless to say... young, only married a couple of years, a 9 month old on our hip already and saying I'm pregnant again was overload for him.... for both of us to tell the truth!!! I waited a long time before I even told him!! So that didn't go so well. He pretty much shut down, didn't want to talk about it and didn't really have a whole lot to do with the pregnancy... until Ty came and even then it was absolute craziness with 2 kids under 2 yrs old! We went through alot those first couple of years of marriage.

Anyway, Joey had decided that he wasn't going to act like that this time, that he wanted to be part of the pregnancy and everything. He got so excited about it!

Then the second week in December, I had some complications and lost our baby. I was so upset, but then felt like it all wasn't really real since I wasn't that far along in the pregnancy. So I've been dealing with all these issues and I know it's not like losing one after 4-5 months or more, but to me it was completely devastating. Even though we were trying to figure everything out, I was still excited!

So we haven't really talked about it w/ alot of people. We had decided not to tell anyone that I was pregnant until the 3rd month, etc... but some people figured it out. I was so sick, not like w/ my other two angels. Joey's sister was the first to figure it out, then his Mom and Dad, and a few people at church had their suspisions too!

Anyway, I never even told my parents or Carrie and Kurt about being pregnant until after I lost the baby, and afterwards I felt terrible having to tell them that I was and had lost it... but I didn't know what to do! I felt guilty somehow that I was pregnant not even trying and Carrie and Kurt still want to have one after losing Aaron last year... and I really didn't know how my Mom would handle it either. Then to have to tell her that way, it literally broke my heart when I told her and she said "Well, we have 4 grandchildren now." ... and it took me a minute to figure out what she was talking about.

So anyway, it's been a crazy few months for us and with everything else going on, even crazier!!! I know that there is a reason for everything ~ the Lord's reason, but sometimes it's so hard to see. I'm having alot of medical problems now and have had a ton of doctor's appointments and I'm just trying to focus on the good of this situation and stay busy as to not think about it so much. And then there's all these extra things going on that keep me crazy like old business stuff, my new job, children's ministry at church, the kiddos activities w/ dance and karate, etc... school, play, etc....

I just needed to "share". I don't even know if anyone will ever read this. But it feels alot better to get it out somehow.

UGHHHHHH.... Again...

ughhhhh... I'm so tired of all this old stuff from my old company popping up all over the place!!!! People need this and that, and for some reason, even if it wasn't something that I had dealt w/ I sure have to deal with it now!!!!!!! I just got more info that I need to dig up a ton of info for some old files!!!!! UGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I can't wait until the cruise! But the problem is this old stuff is mucking up my joy and stealing it away from me. I have to do all this before I can leave! UGHHHHHH!!!!

Sorry, I just have to vent to somebody! It's so agravating!

All this stuff coming up is stealing my joy from alot of things right now! My walk w/ the Lord and prayer life, my diet and daily work out, my relationship w/ the hubby and kids and my excitement for the upcoming cruise. I've gotten so aggravated w/ all this that I'm taking out on my poor family by yelling at them and staying uptight!

I need to look to the Lord and let it be, but I've had a hard time doing that so far!

We just got back from church, AWANA and choir practice. We got news that Hannah and the babies were on their way to Orlando! We're praying for you all girl! After I hear things like this I feel so petty about some of my piddly stuff that gets me down. I wish it wasn't like this all the time.

I'm getting excited about...

our upcoming Anniversary trip! Woo Hoo!

The hubby and I are leaving next Friday on Royal Carribean to go to the Bahamas for the weekend in honor of our 7th anniversary - and glory of all glories... my in-laws are keeping the kiddos! Woo Hoo!

Our first ever vacation w/out the kiddies!!!!! We only had a very short honeymoon in Orlando and gave up our cruise so that we could get right back and move straight to South Florida for Joey's internship as a Junior High Youth Pastor at a huge community Church in Stuart, Florida... after that we had Mackenzie and then Ty came along... and here we are, 7 years later, every vacation w/ the kids!

So I'm really excited! Not that I don't love the kids and spending time w/ them... but the thought of the two of us having a few days to ourselves and being able to snorkel, swim, go to shows, and stay out late w/out having to worry about if the kids are tired, bed times, meal times, being safe on the beach, etc.... just thrills me..................WOO HOO!

Izzie Grace Blog Backgrounds are great!

This site is totally cool and easy to upload and download!

Hooray! I finally figured out how to change my backgrouds! I'm invincable now! LOL!

Now I've got to work on uploading pictures!

to my friends...

To all of my friends who may stumble across my blog...

I started this blog for myself as a way to document my weight loss and my goals for this year. I have not started a blog for the family yet, but they are mentioned plenty of times!

This is a way for me to hold myself accountable and to have a "diary" of my journey.

It's great that everyone has started a blog as a way for us to stay in touch!!!! Sometimes I feel so distant from everyone now, now that we haven't been able to attend Sunday School and we're back in the Children's Dept on Wednesdays.

I'd love to start a Bible Study on Sunday nights instead of just regular service... I'm having Joey talk to Bro. Craig about it to get his approval. So I was just wondering if anyone else would be interested? I know that Sundays are a time to get ready for the upcoming week, especially after we've been at church all morning... but I spoke with Betsy about it and it made sense to have it on a Sunday night because then we'd have child care that we wouldn't have to set up.

So just drop me a note and let me know if anyone is interested!

Love to all!

ughhhh.

Well it's been forever since I've been on here! We've been so busy with church activities all weekend... and now I've been sick and in bed all day! Ughhh...

Haven't worked out at all the past few days, eating has been okay I guess.

I've got to get back in the game of eating well and working out!!!!

Pray for me!

Here's to tomorrow!!! Not looking foward to it... work is going to be hectic the next week or so... ughhhhh... my old company stuff is still haunting.... ughhhhh...

The only good thing I have to look forward to is going on our anniversary cruise next weekend! Woo Hoo!

... but I've got to survive this week and next week before we can leave... ughhhhh.....

Geez!

Oh geez! I forgot to blog yesterday! And I didn't remember until this morning when I got up and it was like it hit me - DUH! As my 6 1/2 yr old daughter so greatly puts it!

So here I am, I've just gotten to work... it's quiet for once and only me here until about 9 am so I have some time to get some things done and caught up!

Well yesterday, Tues the 6th, wasn't too bad! I had people still calling and pestering and threatening me re: my old company... which made me really angry the way this one woman worded some of her emails accusing me of things. Anyway, it was really busy at work too, kind of crazy actually!

My daughter had dance practice right after school so I picked up my hubby after work, then went to pick up the kids from school, then off to dance practice! After dance we grabbed something to eat, went by my in-laws to see their new truck and then finally got home around 6 pm. So at least we'd already eaten and I didn't have to cook dinner, but as soon as I got home I just wanted to collapse! I've been so tired the past few weeks and I don't know what my problem is! Anyway, the hubby went out for a bike ride - In the Dark! and I sent the kids to clean their rooms and play while I got on the computer to put all of our stuff in order so that we can go ahead and do our taxes and get our refund a little early. Anyway, needless to say I was on the computer and the phone for a couple hours, watched some tv, read a chapter in my book I've been working to read since Christmas and then I was ready to hit the sack!

So.... I didn't work out yesterday and I've yet to work out today... but hey, it's still early today, although today is Wednesday which means I leave work, pick up the kids from school and go straight to church where I give piano lessons all afternoon until church starts and then we're stuck there until way after 8 pm, so I'll probably not going to want to do anything when I get home again either, but I'm going to try to make myself do something!

I've been doing well on eating, just fish last night and a grilled cheese for lunch, that's it, so not too bad.

I think I've been doing pretty well on the high-strung, no yelling, patience and servant's heart towards my hubby and kids as well. It's def a work in progress!

Hope today goes well and I'm trying to stay in a "happy" mood!

More tonight, hopefully! Signing off for now!

Happy Monday!

Happy Monday everyone!

I got up early and had a relatively good morning with the kids getting up easily and getting ready for school, watching cartoons until I was ready to leave and then getting the kiddos breakfast and out the door. They were early to school and I even had time to stop and check the mail and still make it on time to work.

Work was a bit crazy today, the Monday after having time off for the holidays! Anyway, I've been aggravated a bit today because some of the old customers from the company that I used to run keep calling and witching at me about old files, wanting titles, and refunds, etc... I'm getting so tired of it!

Anyway, my fam and I went to Walmart and Sonny's for dinner - so now we're home, the kids are playing, I've done my grocery shopping, been to the post office, and the bank, etc... my husband has decided to get in shape too this year and is planning on getting up w/ me and the kids in the morning so he can help me out by getting the kids ready so I can work out before I leave for work and then once we leave he is going to ride his bike and work out. So kinda a trade off... therefore, he's working on tuning up his bike, airing the tires, fixing the seat, etc...

It's a wonderful life!

Talk to ya tomorrow!

Hello, my friend, Hello!

Hi again! I actually remembered today that I needed to blog!

I went on another 3 mile run today - Woo Hoo - 2 days in a row! Now the trouble will be trying to figure out how to get it in everyday. I know Wednesday's will be next to impossible to do since we have church until late and I won't run after dark. And I don't get to come home in between work and church - so I'll have to figure something out.

I've been doing well on some of my other goals as well. I've definitely been watching what I eat and trying to cut out my sweet tooth! I've also been trying to have a servant's heart w/ my hubby, and not flying off the handle and yelling at the kids. I've been trying to have patience.

We had church today and we had to decorate for our theme night this Wed. night for AWANA so I've been busy all day and will be busy all week.

Just wanted to check in and blog for the day! Good night and I'll be typing again tomorrow! :-)

Woo Hoo!

Okay, I know I've posted today already, but...

I just got done a 3 mile run in the neighborhood! WOO HOO! I'm so proud of myself! Now just to keep it up everyday!

I took my IPod and listened to what I call my "power music" - it's mostly girl power old 1990's music like Salt 'N Peppa, etc... stuff I remember from being a teenager!

Anyway, I'm lovin' the way I feel right now!!!! WOO HOO!

Just had to share! :-)

My Goals for 2009!

Here are my goals for 2009!

However, I am not going to type all of them in here because some of them are a bit personal! LOL! :-)

1. Bible Study
2. Lose weight & tone up
3. Co-write a song (music & lyrics!) with my hubby
4. Kiss my hubby everyday and tell him I love him
5. Stay organized and on top of everything
6. Take care of myself
7. Me time
8. Budget better
9. Try not to be so high-strung & not fly off the handle
10. No more yelling
11. Practice/play the piano at least 2x's a week
12. Have more patience
13. Devise a timeline for cleaning the house weekly
14. Devise house schedule for homework, practices, reading, etc...
15. Relax more/spend time w/ the hubby & kids
16. Plan ahead
17. Blog everyday

So those are just a "few" of my goals that I'm going to post! Let's see how many I can accomplish today!!!! ;-)

Already...

I've already forgotten to blog one day!!!! I forgot yesterday! Actually, I did remember earlier in the day but then thought I'd wait until the evening to blog after the day was almost through, and then I completely forgot!

So this one is for yesterday!

Yesterday was okay. I went to Hobby Lobby with my mom, sis, brother and my baby girl! We also went to the party store. We were looking for craft things and decorations for our monthly theme nights that we have in our Wednesday nights AWANA kids program. This month's theme is Grand Prix racing, so we needed checker flags and the like. We also picked up some stuff for our Royal Princess Breakfast that we are having for all the little girls in our church next month.

We also went by my in-laws yesterday to see the new camper that they bought. They also bought a new truck to pull it! Kinda funny that my in-laws did that all in the past couple of days... they are not spontaneous purchasers by no means! Anyway, that got my hubby on the band wagon about buying a pop up camper. They're all in the mind set that it's cheaper to have a camper and go in the woods, to the mountains or to the beach in a camper instead of paying over $100.00 a night for a hotel room. They also think that we'd always have something to do on a weekend ~ if there was ever a weekend we were bored with nothing planned to do!

Anyway, that was my day. I did do a lot of walking in the stores and such, but I never got in a full work out or never went for a run. I was good though with my eating.

I've also registered on Self.com's diet website (it's free!) and it calculatesc calories you've eaten during the day and tracks your weight loss, etc... pretty cool sight, if you ever want to check it out.

So yesterday, I did make some progress toward my goal of being healthier and happier!

I'll see ya again today for today's post! LOL! :-)

What are you doing New Years, part deux!

Well, I just remembered at 8:45 pm that I hadn't blogged yet today! GREAT! Another one of my resolutions that I almost forgot!

Last night was nice... ordered in Chinese food with the kiddos & hubby... let the kids stay up late, they went to bed around 9:00 and then the hubby & I watched two brand new movies that are out until almost 2 am. We had fun... I got chocolate truffles, eclairs and nachos (some of our fave things) to snack on, but only ended up eating one truffle! I'm kinda proud of myself for that self control!!!

But I have to say that today, New Years Day, Jan. 1, 2009 - that I feel kinda crappy and bloated. Haven't really eaten anything horrible, but just feel blah! For one thing I'm stuck in the house since the entire family is sick. We didn't get to go to my hubby's Aunt's house for New Years Day w/ the family, I didn't get to go to my family's New Years with my Aunt who is here from GA either! We just stayed home all day... I surfed the net, watched tv, administered medications, picked up the house, went to Taco Bell to get dinner and now it's almost 9 pm and there's nothing on tv and nothing to do!

I've been acting like a butthead to my hubby cause I kinda feel like it's his fault we had to stay around the house all day since he's the one that's sick and whiny! I've been taking it out on him all day. Yesterday I was upset we couldn't go out for New Years Eve and then I realized I was being pathetic and decided to buck up and put my big girl panties on and deal with it and we had a really great night! But today.....

I don't know, I'm just feeling blah today, pessimistic, horrible, bloated, bad, cranky, crappy, all of the above....... and my hubby has been horribly nice to me all day! Almost patronizing! "I love you honey!" "Do you need a hug honey?" "What's the matter honey?" Even now, he has just come out here to see if I want to watch a movie and is still being nice to me and all I want to do is stick my tongue out at him and tell him to leave me alone!

I'm being horrible and pathetic and I've got to get out of this slump!!!

I'm going to try and work out tomorrow!! That's an upside.... I want to get motivated! So here goes nothing! Hopefully a good nights sleep will help my outlook and I'll be better tomorrow! Here's to hoping!